I need grace...DAILY!

Today I'm being very bitchy...I know I am being bitchy.....I don't want to be bitchy...but alas, the next thing I know....I'm being mean for no reason!

Do you ever wonder why we do this? I'm assuming I'm not alone in this phenomenon. In fact it makes me think of Paul in Romans 7 babbling about doing what he shouldn't do and not doing what he wants to do and ought to do....something like that. So here I am...in this slump of selfishness and loathing and I can't figure out what the heck I did to get here.

But I know how it get out. Jesus. That simple. That powerful. His grace is sufficient for me..even my crabby, mean, mode that encumbers and clouds my day.

Here is the problem....I know Jesus is the answer, I want to be in a better mode, but I also want to selfishly sulk about all the things that are putting me in this funk instead of seek the peace of a loving Savior. What the heck is wrong with me? Am I on drugs? no....but apparently I can't get out of my own way long enough to receive the blessings of redemption and the abundant grace that overflows from a life found in Christ....is this human nature? Are we all this stupid? Or is it just me? Perhaps the later has a ring of truth.

Solution? Suck it up and turn to truth: Roamns 7

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it. 21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! "

Pray for me...to suck it up...put my stubborn, selfish, sin nature aside and accept the gift of unmerited favor and grace....I seriously don't deserve it...but dang am I grateful!

God is good:-)

Over the past seven odd years I have found myself living in various different locations....from Boston, to Newport Beach, Swanzey Lake, London....now to Chicago.

Throughout my decision process as to "where" to move, i have tried to be faithful to pray and trust that God has prepared the way for each local. Of course, faith is an action, so if we want to see God move we got to pick up our feet! The version in Genesis where God says to Abram, "Go and I WILL show you the land I have given you!" The tense of word 'will' has always struck me as indicative of God's nature. Part of faith is trusting in what we can't see....luckily faith is a gift and we can ask for more of it!

Anyways, point of my ramble....in each of the places I have moved there has been that moment when I am walking around like normal and suddenly it strikes me that I am home. I am exactly where God wants me and I have an overwhelming feeling of joy and peace the washes over me like a wave of grace from God the Father:-).....today I received a wave!

I don't know what God has in store for my life, but I know that it will be an adventure. I don't know what this Chicago life will look like, but I am excited. I have no idea what the future hold, but I will GO, and He WILL show me:-)