Dang it! I'm Still a Perfectionist!

Two weeks in an d God is already teaching me so much! Low and behold I am still a perfectionist and when the head pastor asked me, "What about this first full week has made you nervous or hesitant?" The answer surprised me....I am not nervous about getting up in front of the church and sharing my testimony, (did that the first Sunday). I am not nervous about teaching a class, (did that on my first Tuesday)...but I seem to have this overwhelming desire to be GREAT at all these tasks right off the bat.

Well guess what? I'm not going to be seasoned on my first attempt at ministry, so why am I putting so much pressure on myself? Oh yeah, I'm crazy and I think I need to prove my calling...maybe even prove my calling to myself. Here is the deal. GOD CALLED ME! I have nothing to prove because it is not in my own strength that I need to live this life of ministry! DUH! But in my first few weeks I found myself trying to be the best in my own strength. In the words of Professor Bruckner I have a divided heart...my head and my heart are not connected and I need to remember that it is not about me...it is about Jesus!

So with humility and a sense of hope I look forward to the lessons God has in store for me this year. I am so thankful for what He has already taught me and reminded me here in Ceresco. He continues to bless me with amazing people and new friends. On top of that I have found some excellent coffee shops:-) I can't wait to see what this year has in store and I am excited to be dependent on HIM and not myself. Bring it on mistakes! I know I can learn from you!

Oh, and here is a new favorite caffeinated watering hole!