Here We Go Again On My Own

It is hard to believe I have already been here for FOUR weeks!  I look around at the the amazing people I have meet and how much God has already taught me and I know time has passed, but then again it is just flying by.  When time seems to slip away so quickly it is hard to be intentional about how I spend my time.  I want to be intentional about my time in Nebraska!  I want to be healthy and to grow.  Although the past four weeks feel like a blur, I know that I am not being intentional and I struggle with what it looks like to be on my own.

The other week I listened to Judy Peterson's sermon from CHIC (CHIC is a big youth conference int eh Evangelical Covenant Church).  If you want to be blown away and challenged in your faith I suggest listening to her sermon!  It is well worth it: http://covchurch.tv/chic2012-peterson-message/Judy's sermon.  She preached on the man at the well that Jesus healed.  The question Jesus asked was "Do you want to be made well?"  This question has stayed with me for the last few weeks.  In truth I say I want to be made well, I want to be intentional about my time in Ceresco, I want to be healthy, but my actions do no follow my heart.

Jesus asks "Do you want to be made well?"  Then he states clearly, "Get up!"  Jesus asks the question but he also requires a RESPONSE! Well....in truth I find myself not getting up!  If I want to be made well then I better the heck GET UP!  Living on my own is hard because after a busy day i just want to zone out in front of the tv.  That is ok on occasion, but not as a default!  I know that does not give me life.

What is hard for me is that friends often give me life.  In fact this week I had three great friends coem and visit and it made my week!  Thanks Ellie, Rachel, and Sam!

 But I am left with the question, what does it look like to have rest that breeds life outside of the context of close friends?  I don't have an answer yet, but I am hoping to pick up my mat!  I am hoping to be intentional and to indeed GROW!  So here I go again on my own...oh yeah, with God too!